notes on anger

this morning I could not get the screen to POST, so i ended up writing a document which now will not cut and paste to here, why i don't know. Basically I was talking on ANGER and what it can reek on self and relationship. Anger that wants an object, projecting onto the nearest and dearest being. For me when I came home after 3 months caring for my mother dying of lung cancer, I was angry. My periods had stopped; I was a 49 year old angry mother. First I made a plan and stopped smoking; no help, just on my own.But I was still angry. I attacked my partner's habbit,"I didn't stop smoking just to die of passive smoke!" He said he'd stop, but it has been 15 years and he's still got "his best friend." I don't like my anger locks. Why am i so pissed off?